6 more hours to Malaysia.

 The picture cannot rotate WTH.

Hi guys.
I don't think I told many but I will be going Malaysia in 5 hours time and reach there in about 6 hours time.
I am already missing Singapore a lot but I need a break and I'm glad finally this day arrived.
See you all on 4th January 2011. I'll be back in 3rd January 2011.

Diabolic plots.

Life is scary at times. Sometimes you will be trapped in total darkness.
I worry a lot. Sometimes too much. Often I get scared of scenarios that I made up in my mind that I would cry.
I am flawed. Yes I am. That is why I need God's power to help me. To shield me from evil.
I am afraid of dying. I can't bear the thought that I might die painfully.
I dislike vomiting. Okay that sounds weird. I really dislike it.

So the pastor told us 3 stories yesterday but I can only remember 2.
Story 1:
A rich man's son was kidnapped and the kidnappers told the rich man to prepare money to exchange for his son. The kidnappers hid the son in a village and some villagers noticed that there are weird people in their village so they report it to their 'leader'. What is 村长 in english?
Anyway, the leader in the end found out that the weird people are kidnappers and captured them and return the son to the rich man. The rich man was so touched and decided to give the villagers something they need. He thought for a long time and decided to build them a well as the nearest well from the village is very far and it is very inconvenient. The well benefited all the villagers and hence it is the perfect gift for the villagers.

Story 2:
This happened to the pastor. He was in army and one day there was a new army personnel (I forgot what the person's suppose to be. I think is the commander.) and the new army person- let's just call him Mr Lim, no offence to any Mr Lims- kept making the pastor do a lot of things like serving him or something. The pastor was to get all signatures from many people working at the army so that he can leave the army and go back to studying or working but Mr Lim didn't help him sign. The pastor was very troubled. So he went to find the army assistant or something for help and the army assistant told him since only need one more signature it's okay and return him his passport/IC and he is free to leave the army. When he was about to go pack his things he bump into Mr Lim and Mr Lim told him he will not sign for him unless he help him do one last thing. Then the pastor took out the passport/IC and show him he is free from Mr Lim's grasp. Mr Lim looks astonished and asked," How did you get this?!" I forgot what the pastor said or did. :X

First story showed that the rich man gave the gift that pleases everyone from the villagers. Like God gave Jesus to us to clear our sins. To give each one of us the chance for eternal life.
Second story shows that the pastor got the passport/IC and he is free. Like how God gave us Jesus and we are free.

Okay I am going back to reading my book. Hope everybody is having a good day!
I think I end every abruptly. And started very abruptly. Erm. I am a very weird person. Does that make me unique? Prolly in a bad way. Okay bye.

The day after Christmas.

Megan Fox. So pretty!

Eve of Christmas I slept at 10pm and woke up at 1pm.

I waste too much time on sleeping.

I don't remember mentioning is my previous post but one of the uncle from church gave me a bible!

OMG OMG OMG!

I'm so happy!

I think I will buy a cover for it cause the cover looks like it will bend easily and I don't really like the cover but I love the back pages.

THANK GOD FOR THE BIBLE, AMEN!

I have been having stomachaches often recently and it makes me scared.

Is it because of something I ate or is it because I haven't been eating enough?

I should eat more fruits. Maybe it will help my digestion better.

I. Seriously. Don't. Feel. Like. Going. Back. To. School.

Okay goodbye. :(

I love Christmas.

CHRISTMAS IS AMAZING!


I received a lot of presents, thank you God!
I love my church. It is so awesome.


I'm going to open my presents now. Hope everyone get presents they like! :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Today is the day Jesus was born and I will be going to church with mom at 5pm. Excited! So long since I've went to church! I always go to the gathering because mom is only free on fridays.
So I hope everybody spend their Christmas happily and remind ourselves that Jesus is here for us and thank Him for sacrificing Himself on the cross for all of us, even those that have yet to know Him. I love You, Jesus!


I might blog more later. Bye bye! :)

Eve of Christmas.

Christmas eve!
I was in a good mood until the freaking internet connection went crazy and I can't use the wireless so I'm using the plug one. No idea what it is called.

Christmas is coming soon and that means school is starting in like a week's time.
Damn, I really dread going back to school.
I mean, it is nice to catch up with your friends in school. But we're upper secondary students now, and it was like yesterday when I first stepped into YCKSS and surveying the surroundings and thinking to myself," Maybe this isn't as bad as I thought."
Many thing happened, bad and good, but it's sort of fun being in YCKSS.
Yes I don't enjoy all the while being here but might as well do since I'll be here for 2 more years, hopefully.
I think a lot this holiday. I think about the past, the present and the future.
When I first spoke to one of the secondary one students.
When I first talked to one of the teachers.
When I first stepped into one of the classrooms.
When I first entered the hall.
When I first went to the RTC.
When I first argued with a fellow friend in this school.
So many firsts.
And now, I hope for a miracle. For the future.

It's like, I want it so badly. But part of me is still staying in the past.
The happy part of the past.
And I need God's strength to pull me away from it.
Stop dwelling.
I am afraid. I never thought I would be. But I am. Extremely scared that God won't want to bring me away.
I know, God's decision is wise. He won't do harm to me.
Why am I so negative. Crap.


Am I too late?
I really hope not. Wait for me.


Anyway, I hope for the best to everybody I know next year, and hopefully it will be great.
Hopefully everybody like the classes they are going to and have fun! And study hard because a major exam is coming our way faster than imagined.

Seriously 2 years passed? So fast!

Must. Sleep. Early.

ALYSSA MILANO! 

It is 2.20pm now and I just woke up an hour ago. I don't like it.
I like to wake up early cause it makes the day seem longer. And my memory might improve.

Anyway, I went to trim my hair with mom yesterday and the hairdresser is damn funny.
She's so interesting. And she is quite fashionable and she's really good at what she do but she is very talkative and my sister's hair is about 4 inches shorter the last time she leave. But still she's good! And I love my hair after my haircut. It's the first time I like my hair after leaving any salon. I always find it too long or short. Haha!
I finally have the fringe I want, after so many months attempting to cut the style I want and failing!
Yay! And my sister say it looks nice. Overall it is nice to me, but my sister say that except my fringe, I look the same.


I was watching this doctor show few weeks ago and I find it inspiring.
I don't think I want to be a doctor because I don't dare to cut open body parts, even when it is a heroic act because I am a wimp. Hahaha!
Doctors are so cool! They save lives and help people.

So I've been wondering, what is the difference between psychology and psychiatry?
And I went to wikipedia and searched both:

Psychology:

• Is the science of mind and behavior.
• Psychologists explore such concepts as perception, cognition, attention, emotion, phenomenology motivation, brain functioning, personality, behavior, and interpersonal relationships. Some, especially depth psychologists, also consider the unconscious mind.
• Psychologists employ empirical methods to infer causal and correlational relationships between psychosocial variables.
• To employing empirical and deductive methods, some—especially clinical and counseling psychologists—at times rely upon symbolic interpretation and other inductive techniques.
• Incorporates research from the social sciences, natural sciences, and humanities.

Psychiatry:

• Is the medical specialty devoted to the study and treatment of mental disorders—which include various affective, behavioural, cognitive and perceptual disorders.
• assessment typically starts with a mental status examination and the compilation of a case history.
• Psychiatric treatment applies a variety of modalities, including medication, psychotherapy and a wide range of other techniques such as transcranial magnetic stimulation.

These are not very detailed facts about both psychology and psychiatry.
I found out that psychiatrists are able to give their patients medications.
Which makes me think, do I want to be a psychologist or psychiatrist, if I am interested.
I think I will want to be a psychiatrist because I want like the fact that I can prescribe medicine.
But that means I will need to take a larger responsibility for prescribing the medicine.
Not that I want to be psychologist or psychiatrist because I like to be a lawyer more.


So I searched on wikipedia on lawyers and I learned:

• A lawyer, according to Black's Law Dictionary, is "a person learned in the law; as an attorney, counsel or solicitor; a person licensed to practice law."
• Law is the system of rules of conduct established by the sovereign government of a society to correct wrongs, maintain the stability of political and social authority, and deliver justice.
• Involves the practical application of abstract legal theories and knowledge to solve specific individualized problems, or to advance the interests of those who retain (i.e., hire) lawyers to perform legal services.

I am really bored so I'm blogging a lot.
Hahaha! Okay bye.


Source:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychology
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychiatry#Diagnostic_systems
http://psychology.about.com/od/psychotherapy/f/psychvspsych.htm
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lawyer
Picture from Google.

I love to read.

 

 This is a picture of me with wig. My mom offered to do it. Hahaha had fun that day!

It has been long since I've read a book. Like few weeks or something. And the book I read is borrowed from the library and it is due in 2 or 3 days. But I renewed all the other books I borrowed so I'll have to return on 13th Jan. I also asked Crystal to help me renew the books I borrowed using her ez-link card cause I thought I can't borrow anymore because I already borrowed 6 books. We realize that we can actually borrow 12 books as it is the holidays and I think they are trying to get people to read more or something. I'm just guessing hahaha. Okay I'm crazy.


I was browsing my own blog few days ago (cause I was bored, not because I am self absorbed) and realized I used pictures taken on my birthday celebration everywhere, even in few of my posts.
Not that it is a crime or something, but it really make me feel like I don't take enough pictures of my blog. And I then I thought, who cares, no one reads my blog. Not much, anyway. But even those pictures make me think of myself as a lazy and very irresponsible. It's too extreme, now I think back. Hahahaha! But I made up my mind to make my blog as appealing as possible. As appealing to me as possible, actually. I think the holiday is making me a little nutty.



Many people wanted the holiday to end soon, but I feel opposite. I want this holiday to be extended.
I am enjoying myself at home, doing basically nothing and using the computer. Though I like reading and studying better now, but school is not all about that. You have to be friendly and yada yada yada.

I am not cut out to be sociable and friendly. I tried to be before and guess what, I annoy almost everyone. Many people will be nodding their heads right now. Hahahaha!
I look back many times and thought to myself, damn, what was I thinking?
You know, I regret everything and I got kicked by karma! Hooray to everybody that detest me!
Yeah, I was in agony. I underline 'was' with good reason.


I went to church gathering and told the uncles and aunties what I am hoping for and they told me God only give me what is best for me so all I have to do is be thankful and do my best.
I instantly feel so much better and stop feeling upset.
That is the power of God.

Am I writing too much? I don't really care so I'll continue writing.


I have dreams. Dreams to be a lawyer and a writer. Dreams to help people that don't have what we do.
I want to be a lawyer to help people. To promote justice. I feel that the world lack justice. Many people can do anything for money. I want to stand up and do good and eliminate evil.
I want to be a writer to express my feelings. I want to write about how I want to feel when I meet my prince charming. The feeling when you know that he is the one. The feeling that you feel when you are with him. Like he is your world.
It might not be true. I can't be sure because those never happen to me. Or I can't remember cause I have bad memory and my first love (puppy love? So long ago I cannot remember) was like ages ago. I don't even remember when it was. When I was primary 5? Damn I was young!
And I fail English, so I can't be a writer.


Okay done writing. I wrote so much OMG!
Message or tweet me or write on my facebook wall if ya are a friend of mine in facebook and read this post!
If ya don't wanna do this it's cool.
I'm going crazy. Please don't take me too seriously. I am just really lonely at home without my mama papa and sista.
Okay sis in entering the house now. Good bye!

GREAT DAY!

Went to Bugis Street with Rachel today and bought a wallet and 2 dresses!

I regretted buying the black dress at first but after trying it on at home I think it is nicer than the white one.

But I still like both dresses.

I haven't gone out for quite some time and it felt wonderful.

I WANT LONGER FRINGE! I WANT LONGER FRINGE! I WANT LONGER FRINGE! I WANT LONGER FRINGE! I WANT LONGER FRINGE! I WANT LONGER FRINGE! I WANT LONGER FRINGE! I WANT LONGER FRINGE! I WANT LONGER FRINGE! I WANT LONGER FRINGE! I WANT LONGER FRINGE! 

Christmas is coming!

5 more days! YAY! Exchanging gifts!

OMG I have nothing to blog about.

Oh my white color dress has a tear so mom's sewing it now.

BYE!

Faith.

 

Proverbs 19:21 Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails.

Proverbs 20:24 A man's steps are directed by the Lord. How then can anyone understand his own way?

Hello, hello!
So long since my last post, how have everyone been!

I went to gathering on the day before yesterday and it was GREAT!

I learn that God gives you everything you want, as long as it is good for you.

Trust God that He gives you the best.

I also found out that 90% of the world believes that there is God.

Proverb 20:13 If a man shuts his ears to the cry of the poor, he too will cry out and not be answered.

I found these from my sister's bible and hers is the New International Version.

I wonder other than using the computer, what can I do at home?

It's the holidays and I have nothing to do.

They are so good!

WEDNESDAY!

Okay I've decided. Nothing is more important than a bible right now for me so I'm gonna use my money to buy a bible when my sister wanna go shop for bible.

YAY IT'S GONNA BE SO MUCH FUN! I'M GONNA DECORATE MY BIBLE!

WHERE AM I GONNA PUT IT AT?

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

BIBLE BIBLE BIBLE!

Fyi, I have a cross necklace. Crystal bought it for me as my birthday present.

Cool.

I KNOW RIGHT!

Okay I'm extra hyper now but that's great. At least I'm not sad!

I think I should clear out a space for my books so I can put my bible there.

Good idea.

But where?

Where will I visit most?

WHERE???

Shit man I'm going crazy.

I have a messy cupboard. And the shelf where I put my school books are in the kitchen (weird, I know) and I don't usually take notice of it so I won't read so much and that isn't good.

I should totally buy a small table and put my books there.

What I want now is a miracle.

It has been 3 days since I've blogged.

I'm attempting to do some maths questions from next year's textbook but I am really confused so I'm about to give up.

I just got my allowance and I'm gonna save $40 for my bible.

I wonder if I can go church everyday. I wanna learn more about God.

I wish I have more Christian friends. Then we can go to church together every week or something.

I 有心无力. My mom's church gathering is only held once per fortnight.

Sister: 你来看这个photo! 很美勒!

Me: 没有什么用，没有钱去啦!

Sister: 你很烦勒，以后可以去吗!

LOLOLOLOL.

I should get back to my maths. Toodles!

BIRTHDAYYYYYYYY!

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!

(It is actually pass 12am already but the above date is still 11 December.)

12 December is my day! Though I celebrate it on 11 December cause everybody is busy but the celebration is great! Love my family and Crystal!

Thanks to everyone that posted or will be posting on my facebook wall!

It's so sweet of you guys! I know I haven't been the best person but yet you all still gave me your blessings. You people are awesome!

I don't really receive presents cause my birthday is during the holidays and nobody will come over to my house to give me presents cause my house is far and some other reasons.

And can save money.

But it's fine! Your blessings are good enough and I really, really appreciate it very much.

I'm older and wiser now. So I should never do anything rash or insensible.

I really need to buck up on my studies and do my parents proud. Then I can give them a comfortable life, and rest after having to work so hard for me to support my needs and wants. Thank you daddy mommy, I love you both so so so so so so so so so much!!!

I feel so blessed and really grateful to be born in this family. Yes it is tough, but I have enjoyable time too and I should think positively and always appreciate what I have. My family is not perfect, I am not perfect, people around me are not perfect. But we are all who we are. Nobody's got the right to change us. If they can't accept you, then why force them to? They will be other people that are thankful for your existence. So who cares if others are hate you? They are just ants, man!

I love God, my parents, my sister, Crystal, my friends, my soft toys and everything I own.

I really hope my wish will come true. Pray for me, guys!

Upcoming events:

•  My birthday today! 
• Christmas in 13days.
• School reopening in 23days.

God is FANTABULOUS!

Hi ya'll!

I went out with mom at 4pm today as mom want to dye her hair.

It is kind of boring but I enjoy watching her putting the dye on my mom's hair and everything.

There are miracles.

It happens.

God have reasons as to why he did not answer your prayers. Because He had already arranged better things for you that you do not know yet, but will soon find out. Our Father is awesome!

I like walking around Earth, looking at beautiful flowers and trees and people talking to each other. It is a blessing to have people walking with you, side by side, as we all make it through hardships in life. Even though you only have a few people, it is still better than have none or a whole lot of fake bitches pretending to be your friend.

There will be people that doubt you, judge you, speak badly of you, make use of you, take you for granted and mentally abuse you. But don't hate them. Don't seek revenge. Just ignore. They are so much lower than you. Why bother using your precious time arguing? What goes around comes back around, twice as fast.

Upcoming events:

• My birthday in 2 days.
• Christmas in 13 days.

I wouldn't say today is delightful. After all, I only woke up at 12pm and I don't like waking up late. :/

I dread going to school.

Few more weeks, man. I need more time to prepare for everything, too.

I wonder how my classmates are like.

Regardless, I'll really need to study hard this year, and stop slacking.

I've spent too much time using computer, too.

Watching this cooking show on television.

Look so delicious!

The clock is ticking. Tick tock, tick tock.

When time pass, it will never come back.

Treasure time, and do something meaningful.

I seriously need a bible.

I did nothing today.

I actually planned to do some maths because I need revision but I spend the whole day watching bones.

I seriously need to work harder.

I need a miracle.

I really hate it there. I don't belong there at all. I feel so out of the situation all the time.

Most of the time I don't care, but occasionally I do think about it and realized I don't like it there. 

I want a fresh, fresh start. I need a fresh start.

I need to abandon the past. Please.

Upcoming events:

• My birthday in 5 days.
• Christmas in 13 days.

My 华人birthday!

今天是我的华人生日!

Mom told me yesterday that I have to eat 面线 today.

Sadly I will have to cook myself because she have to go to work.

But that's fine, I like to cook!

I love bones!

I will post more later. It's the start of the day and there aren't much to talk about.

Naps are awesome!

Hihihihihi.

I just woke up from nap moments ago.

Sister is on her way home from work and she bought FOOD.

I'm just sitting in front of the computer drinking herbal tea and surfing the net.

I bought Nexcare! Expensive shit, but it is quite useful.

The function is basically to absorb the acne oil on your pimple so that it can heal faster, just by sticking the sticker! How convenient! It comes with sizes, big and small.

Crystal is working and so is my sister. I'm all alone at home most of the time and no one ask me out. Not that I mind, but I am bored.

I need to plan a schedule soon. Everything is getting out of hand, especially because it is holiday right now.

Upcoming events:

•  My birthday in 6 days.
• Christmas in 19 days.

SO TIRED!

First post for this magnificant new blog of mine.

Yay new blog!

My point of making a new blog and change e-mail address is for a new change as the year is ending in few weeks' time.

Sure there are memorable times during 2010, but I find more memories unpleasant.

So I am hoping next year will be a better year, and there will be more achievements and more accomplished goals.

It's sad that I spend 2010 doing stupid things, being immature and so many other things that I regretted so much.

My sister went to work at 1pm today as she have to report at 2pm.

She told me many delightful events that happened during work, and some are extremely hilarious.

I love it when she come home from work and we chat as she eat dinner. It's so heartwarming and nice.
I went to her work place for a few times and bought products from there with my mom.

It was great as her colleagues are funny and friendly. I wish I can work there when I am 16.

Upcoming events:

• My birthday in 7 more days. 
• Christmas in 20 more days.

Goodbye, people!