Boy best friends.

Malaysia's train tracks.


YAHOOO!
It's finally Saturday!


Here is a detailed explanation of why I am going to talk about boy best friends.
See, I only have a few friends and I only consider like, let me think, 10/50x100=20% of them are closer to me.
And when I say close it is far from Oh-my-goodness-let's-go-out-everyday close.
Because we all have our differences and do not mix well somehow.
It's like after filtration residue will be found. That's our differences.
It's super hard to find good friends. And I can tell you that I am not that easy to be friends with.
And people say school is where you find true friends.
Tell you my super great best friend is from another school and WE HAVE NOT MET BEFORE.
I met her on audition.
And back then we were only primary 6. Or 5.
She is also 15 this year, and was my 'jie' cause the was born earlier.
We used to talk a lot and the first time I spoke to her on phone was weird but she said she wasn't scared or anything cause I'm a girl.
I remembered it damn clearly okay. Back then my memory was super good. Now it is shitting hell.
A lot happened between these years and we stopped contacting for a long time.
I remembered she was very sad/ angry cause her mother was very disappointed by her results but she scored super well can?! Like 230 or something. I remember is higher than me and my results is 205. Oi higher than you okay don't laugh at me. I asked around in school when I was Secondary 1 and surprisingly I got the best or at least top few best results in the whole Secondary 1. But my Secondary 2 results was shitting hell. The Secondary 1's results I was so scared I will drop to NA and last year I was super scared because I failed like 5 or 6 subjects. Thank God I'm still in Express and happy now.
Anyway, just a month ago I talked to her about my Sec 2 results and a lot of shit and she gave me a lot of encouragements and I am really grateful for it.
But these are not the point.

So back when we were Primary 6, she's got herself a boyfriend and I think they quarreled and I wanted to help her so I got his number from, let's call her Anne because Anna has been taken from my cute little baby niece, we sort of talked and after like 2 years of not talking we started chatting. Er they split up in the end by the way.

We became best friends after months of talking and all my girl friends are like "OMG do you like him?" or "he definitely likes you!" And blah blah blah. I'm like "Whatever, bitches. I don't like him and we are just really good friends."
I was rude, y'know.
I remembered a lot of stupid jokes. There is this one that is about Obama (SORRY PRESIDENT OF AMERICA!). You guy know he always say "yes we can!" Or something. I have no idea how we talked about this and I don't remember what's so funny but I just said "Yes I can, no you can't!
Back then I feel that it was super funny. I'm so simple-minded seriously.
And he used to say I'm super naive or something.
Aiya then the typical ending of a best boy girl friends strike, which is one fell in love with another and so unfortunate, I was the one then fell into the stupid trap.
Obviously now I realize it was just a meaningless crush and my stupid Sec 1 ass can't see it.
In the end I think we fought and then we just stop talking. Yeah.

Oh and I never see his face before because I think he's very shy or something but he is damn arrogant. Okay that is weird. WTH.
And we chat on MSN. And not from same school also.
Let's just name him Hufflepuff because I am crazy.


I just thought of these good friends of mine I was once so close with because I am lonely. :(
Hahahaha I will probably die alone when I am old.
But no worries I have got God!
And Hufflepuff hates it when people are religious.

Oh I miss the good old times.
Still got A LOT A LOT A LOT of funny things.


I find it extremely stupid of me to have a damn crush on people I have had a crush on. Not only Hufflepuff.
Some are stupid some are retards some are annoying some are just me being crazy.
And it is such a hassle having a boyfriend. Seriously, I rather play some game on internet.

And do you know? I'D LOVE IT IF SOMEBODY BUY ME AN XBOX. I WASN'T ALLOWED TO GET IT MYSELF CAUSE I WILL FEEL GUILTY FOR NEGLECTING MY STUDIES.
So I play internet trial games. It is super lame. But some are fun.
OMG I AM SUCH A FREAK. Or should I say geek?



I'm weird.

But I know you wish it was me, you wish it was me.

Don't say yes, run away now!


OHAIYO.
Okay I was the biggest moron today. I said something I should not have damn loudly.
I'm so dead.

Hopefully nothing happens.


IT IS WEDNESDAY. But a good one.
We ended school early. Happy!
Had breakfast-lunch with Rachel and went home.
I'm doing my DNT work on THE HISTORY OF CELL PHONES.
And I need to revise all my work. And try my best to get good grades for this common test.
Scary. Time flies. It is already week 3 of 2011!
I sort of wish Lunar New Year comes faster. :D

I hate biase people.

Hi.
I wish to dissect a frog now. Because I am pissed.
Okay I will not talk about it so I will not be angry anymore because I hate being angry.

Here are some pictures.

Above pictures are found at google.

THEY ARE SO PRETTY!
I especially like the first one. Green eyes and green braces!


I also want. :(

Anyway, I am really bored and seriously damn emotional. :(
Suddenly don't have the mood to blog. Goodbye!

GOT SO MANY THINGS TO BUY. :(



Need to improve my english. MUST STUDY UNTIL I GET A2. MUST.
It is a lot I know, but I have to work for my future so hopefully reading more newspapers and keeping a vocab book is good enough.

I just went to buy stationery at Popular and the A3 clear folder file is so expensive!
But it is expected actually. But still expensive.

And the very expensive contact lens solution. $12.50 one bottle.


Okay very busy blog next time good bye!

I love you, mommy and daddy.

LOVE THIS!

I can tell you're tired being lonely.


I am seriously very tired of studying whole damn day for 3 consecutive days right after biology, dance training and 3hours at gym.
I am scared I will suddenly give up and stop studying for my own sake because I am just simply too tired.
My objective of studying is actually partly for my parents, to take care of them, to thank them for taking care of me and bearing my temper.
I love my parents so much. I am very grateful that they took good care of me and gave me a chance to study, where my mom did not have the chance to and my dad gave up studies.
I have heard that in a family of two children, one will definitely be smart and the other one will be dumb. I am very worried that I am the dumb one. I just want to earn a lot of money to give them back what they gave me. It is the least I can give them.
Okay I will go back to studying. Pray that I will be always motivated.

Please bless my dad, Lord Jesus.

Philippians 3:7 I once thought these things were valuable, but now I consider them worthless because of what Christ has done.

Have you guys heard? Facebook may be closing down!


I wish this Friday teachers will give shit loads of work so I will not be bored like today and spend my day doing all my work. I would love that.



Now I know why I made this decision and stand stronger and firmer.

Because I care.

Okay I just got a chain message and I had to send it so I am a little irritated.

I edited the content because I feel that it will be a sad thing for people with very little friends and had to burst their brains thinking what to do or whether to even send it or not because they can't find enough people to send it to.

It might be rude to edit somebody else message but there are many times where the message requires you to send to large number of people or close friends and when you do not know large number of people or do not have that many close friends it feels bad and sad. At least it does to me.

So I delete the part where it says to send it to blah amount of people whenever I can.

Unless the message specifically say no alteration then I guess I have to respect the person who sent it and don't change anything.

I still think people who send these chain messages are irritating. If you want to send it out, don't send to me.

I can be fun and everything but I can also be serious and when I am, listen.

Do not joke with me when I am serious because I will get angry. I am not good at controlling my feelings even though I am trying hard. But I feel that anger can get to people faster. But it is not advised because people will also instantly think you're a bitch and hate you. I'm not being dramatic it is true I've been through this many times.

I think I am toned down a little right now and don't get angry easily unless you keep pestering me or push me around or whatever I dislike. I have the right to decide whether if I want to do it or not.

I am a nice person and usually I like it when people send me nice appreciative message that don't require me to send it out unless I want to.

It is a Sunday today and it is 2pm now.

Weekends are boring and I wish they gave me homework so I can do something rather than doing nothing and staring at the television thinking about what to do.

I tried reading Physics notes but I gave up.

I feel that buying my Physics guide book is a waste of money and regret it deeply even though it is only $3 plus.

Okay whatever. Goodbye!

Okay I am blogging twice today because I was reading a blog and the owner's pictures are almost all taken with friends.
I mean, she is older than me by a lot and I am still a student so I need to study and hence, do not have time to mingle with people and make friends.
It is a pathetic thing, I admit. But many people are overreacting when I spend some of my classes sitting alone/ go home straight after school(mostly but this year I will be going to the library to study if I have school work with Rachel)/ I do not have friends in my new class or simply because majority of the people from my previous class are boys and only 1 girl is in my class. What is the big deal for being anti social/ a loner?
I had many friends because I feel insecure without them. But now, I just want to be alone and concentrate on studies. And I am not saying that people with friends won't study they do and probably better than loners because they can ask them questions they do not know.
I have my sister and Crystal to ask. I still have friends just not from class. Not close anyway.
Which leads me to why I am irritated to being alone in class.
MAJORITY OF THE PEOPLE FROM MY CLASS ARE BOYS. So I can't be grouped with them during group work. So I was, naturally, terrified when Mr Jimmy Chiang asked us to form groups of 6.
I was like,"nobody wants me in their group what to do?! It is going to be awkward if Mr Jimmy Chiang ask me to join a clique's group and I'll be extra out of the situation and they will detest me and talk bad about me during their gossip time and..."
In the end Clara invited me to their group and I guess it was okay, but I was ashamed because 'my group' only had one person so it didn't qualify and I feel sad when I had to join them and they are good friend while I only know them for like 4 days and they only obviously know me for 4 days. I hope they don't mind but I still wish I can do individual work.
I really hope I can request to teachers so I can do individual work.

This is the bad part of being somebody without friends.
But I like being alone.
Although it will be good to have friends during group work.


I will make friends when i graduate hahaha!

God blesses.

Hi.
I am excited for monday!
I hope I'll always be excited for monday.

I am interested in learning human body language!
I'm watching this show called Lie to me.
It is about detecting others' lies, especially criminals.
They are like a team to help the polices and it is super nice!
I learn a little as to what people do to project how they are feeling.
Okay bye! :D

十年后，一切都会变成笑话.

Hello humans!
I am in a happy mode because I am in the biology afternoon lesson class!
YAY!
I am so happy! Thank You, God! xD

I am very interested in biology. I like bacteria.
I think bacteria are like cool. They form patterns on agar (or something) and it's so interesting!
Thanks to everybody that helped me pray! May God bless you!
Those that curse me, hope God gets through to you.


What I like about blogging is that my english will improve when I blog and I like reading posts written by people with good english and I become better.
I kind of don't like many people because I find that humans are mostly pretentious.
I mean, you never know which people are devious which are not.
So it is better to only tell surface facts first rather than tell your deepest secrets to everyone.
I enjoy talking to people that are like me because they tend to understand me better. Obviously.
Okay I think I am out of point.
I hope my studies will improve because I want distinction!

Okay bye. :D

Desperate times call for desperate measures.

HELLO PEOPLE, WHAT'S UP!
School reopened this morning and it was average.
It wasn't amazing or whatsoever, but I guess it isn't bad.
It's not that awful you know, being in a class with people you aren't close to. My class is filled with many strangers and there are only a handful of people that I know but we barely talked. I thought it would be super crappy and I might go crazy but it was okay. It's not awesome but it's good enough.
We had an introduction/break-the-ice exercise and it was awkward because I think I looked like I'm a moron and I probably am.
I am in band 4 for english. Last class okay! It's not that good, obviously. But I like Mrs Yip and I, hopefully, will improve profusely as I will be trying my hardest to be attentive and hardworking.


I want biology!
I didn't opt for it last year, so I guess I will not be able to attend afternoon lessons.
I want another subject because I think 7 subjects is really little and I want more options for my L1R4/L1R5.
I don't usually talk about what I want on my blog because I feel like it is very 'pantan' (I learned this from Malaysia!) but not many people read my blog and they don't really care either, I think. But for those that cares for me, pray for me please! With a cherry on top! I really like biology. I think bacteria are cool. I am weird.

I kind of like school but I am dreading chinese because I am really bad at it. And history.


God loves everyone and there is a reason why you are appointed to the class you are attending so be grateful! I am not sure if I can accept if I am not in biology afternoon class but I have to accept the facts. I have to pray daily for it. At least until next monday. I think.
Okay goodbye and good luck!